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Letters to Cullen

The Holiday Spectacle

The Holiday Spectacle

Dear Cullen, I keep driving by "that house" on Weston Road: The house that decorates for every holiday with as many lights, blow up things, lawn people and holiday scenes as humanly possible. I remember when we used to drive by together, see the red van in their driveway and say "look out, the holiday spectacle is in process," and wonder what new decorations they can possbly pull out for whatever holiday is approaching. We also would notice the many new items each year, and how the decorations for Christmas were somehow now creeping outside of their fenced-in yard. We both agreed...

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Six Months and We Were Silly

Six Months and We Were Silly

Dear Cullen, Today is 6 months since your accident. I can't believe it. It feels like yesterday since I lost you, and I still can't remember that much since it happened. I think my brain is still in "protection mode" and I am just flying through each day to establish some sort of a routine and to move past the pain and sadness. I have been working with the estate attorney on the probate court filings, tax returns and all of the requirements to close down the estate..I don't think many people realize how long it takes, not by choice but by legal requirement. At least it keeps...

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Happy 40th Birthday

Happy 40th Birthday

Dear Cullen, Catching up on my letters, so this is very late. I celebrated your 40th birthday on July 19th. It wasn't what I had planned for you of course. The night of your accident we talked about the plans: the long weekend in the Hamptons at the nicest (only) resort there. We had never been there before but it was on our list of places to visit and it was where you wanted to go. I found the list by the way... Instead, our friends came to the house, knowing it would be hard for me (hard for all of us). We had dinner, drinks and cupcakes. We...

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The Fireplace

The Fireplace

  Dear Cullen, It's been awhile since I have written to you. Our two-year anniversary really threw me, knocked me down and made me really, really sad. I didn't have energy, although I know that writing to you helps me get through my days and to remember our moments, especially the small ones. The last few months have been a blur. I don't really remember most of what happened in my daily life, only that you were not here, the weather started to change, and so many things that we used to do together I now need to do alone. I had the fireplace cleaned. The Chimney...

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Remembering our Anniversary

Remembering our Anniversary

Dear Cullen, Today would have been our 2nd anniversary. My parents and your parents both  sent me flowers yesterday. Facebook posted the "memory" of our one year anniversary and my post saying how happy I was and our wedding was the best day ever. It was. And every day after that until April 14th.  Our wedding was perfect. Just the two of us in Lanai, married by the jovial Uncle Mike on a hot Hawaii afternoon on the top of a cliff overlooking the ocean at the Four Seasons. I remember the spectacular view, how we commented that is was...

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